Where did you go?

In case any of my lovely readers have stuck around, you might be wondering where I have been.  Well first and foremost Owl got mobile and he is into EVERYTHING.  I mean everything.  Destructo was always a trouble maker and still is very high spirited.  But Oliver takes getting into things to a whole new level.  For one his fine motor skills are amazingly refined for his age.  For two he is obsessed with the toilet and throwing things he finds into it which Destructo never found fun.  For three the damn fine motor skills again.  He can unscrew tops to things.  I learned this when he dumped cat litter everywhere.  I didn't know he could do that.  He is also super strong and can push and maneuver things with ease.  Oh and he enjoys climbing.  So I am busy.

Sickness.  I published a post on this already but we have had a lot of illness.  In fact, Kai and Oliver both have colds as I type this.  Owl is going on two weeks with this cold and I am so glad his twelve month well check is this week so I can feel more confident that his lungs and ears are clear.

Sleep deprivation.  Owllie sleeps like a newborn even at a year old.  Yes lovely readers my sweet baby is a year and a week old.  I will be catching the blog up on everything in the next few days/weeks.  I have a whole bunch of pictures to share and will do a post on Owl at ten, eleven, twelve months.  Anyways Owl sleeps like crap.  Destructo has also been waking up/sleep walking/having nightmares or something.  We aren't quite sure what is going on.  We just know that he wakes up at least half the nights of the week sometimes more than once.  

On a good night, I might get woken up twice.  Some nights I am up more than I am down.  A few nights ago I am not kidding when I say the kids had me up six times in eight hours.  I am tired.  So tired.  And I am not really sure what to do about it.  We have tried some cry it out with Owl but he is determined and incredibly loud and it has led to Destructo waking up.  Which leads to my next reason the blog has been silent.

Anxiety.  I have severe anxiety.  I have always been an anxious person.  My entire life.  But at some point in the past year, it got so bad that I could barely function.  I have a lot of OCD tendencies and my doctor thinks I could actually have that (as does the therapist I was seeing.)  Whether I do or not doesn't matter to me as long as I am dealing with my anxiety.  I am going to do an entire blog post on this but I will say I am doing much better after going on Zoloft.  But anxiety is just so exhausting.  Couple that with sleep deprivation and I was not in a good place.  

Finally I have been super busy working doing preschool work with Destructo.  He will start kindergarten a year from this August.  He isn't in preschool now so I am working on getting him ready for school.  I am also working with him on behavior issues and sensory issues.  I have a whole post for this as well but he is going for an occupational therapy evaluation the end of the month and he started speech with the school system a few weeks back.  

So there you have it.  This is why the blog has been silent.  My life has been a bit of a crazy roller coaster ride.  I hope to get back into blogging more regularly since I really miss it.  So if anyone is still around, hi!!